Hey All,
Firstly I hope everyone has had a fun, healthy and event free christmas full of turkey and cheer.
My name is David. Im 34. Im a self employed landscaper. Im actually a member of the Yorkshire CML group but live in Heage, Belper. Firstly I would like to thank Sandy and Elisabeth and everyone involved in the site for a great job. Particularly everyone who contributes to the forums. I cant begin to express how much it has helped me coming on here. So where to start ? Instead of writing a long novel of a mail i think i will abbreviate where possible. This way i can cut to the point and you can all return to the Wizard of Oz and your turkey leftovers.
I was Diagnosed July 16th 2009 in late chronic phase. Had the usual symptoms. Enlarged spleen (Rugby ball), bruising, anemia, considerable weight loss etc etc. Platelets at 852. WBC 321. Bone Marrow Biopsy. Hydroxicarbimide to lower the WBC then randomised into the Imatinib 400mg group of the Spirit 2 trial.
Shut my business down for 6 months until i got to grips with things. Went to the gym every day and got my health and weight back to a point where i was comfortable going back to work. January 10 bought a house with my partner Lisa and spent 3 months renovating it. Then moved in and set my business back up. Have been working ever since. Was doing fine. Results were encouraging. Started getting mild bouts of depression/anxiety/panic attacks and insomnia after about 6 months. Came to a head at the beginning of August 10 when i practically shut down (anxiety/loss of confidence/panic attacks and suicidal tendancies). Went to the doctors and explained that i had never had any of these problems before and had infact accepted the disease and was doing well. I consider myself a confident, outgoing and strong person. Had never shed a tear or been overly upset by the cancer. Was taking it all in my stride. Mental health workers were sent to the house for an assessment (Its "A bout of severe depression") Prescribed Citalopram. Took two tablets and spent the next 36 hours rocking back and forth and sobbing like a baby. Had to be knocked out with Diazepam. Needless to say i havent taken any anti depressants since. Was having 3 monthly meetings at the time at Chesterfield royal. Bought all this up with my haematologist who made a note in my file. No explanation was given. Had another less severe bout 5 or 6 weeks ago (for no fathomable reason) and started researching the links between Imatinib and depression. Contacted the hospital with the information i found (enough) . A meeting was set up immediately and i was told to discontinue the Imatinib.
Was told on the 8th of December (by a different haematologist) that "In some cases these types of drugs do lead to depression etc". Unfortunately though (and aint this a bugger) the Imatinib has stopped working and they were going to contact me if i hadnt got in touch with them first. So i do consider myself both Intolerant and Resistant to Imatinib.
Have now been prescribed 100mg Dasatinib and goodness do i notice the difference. I didnt really realise how much the Imatinib had affected me for so long. I know a lot of people compare the effects of Imatinib to having a cloudy mind. I like to think of it as thick butter on toast if that makes sense.
Any hoo. Im getting on ok with the Dasatinib (3 weeks later). Although i dont even know if it is working properly yet. The side effects are mainly physical. Was very sick to begin with but am now only getting gut pains and smelly urine, aching (i imagine like being trampled by a horse), sore eyes, coughing, shortness of breath and nausea (All of them tolerable and in small amounts). Oh and headaches - bloody headaches. And damn if i dont feel strange of late. Im hoping all this will settle down over time. Soooooooooooo Heres where i need the help. Heres what i know.
I asked and they are classing what has happened as "Failure" and not "Suboptimal Response" in my case. The lab works out my results as a haematological and cytogenetic ratio (Dont ask me for a PCR) I was a 9% in May/June which is the lowest it had got after 10 or so months. In November i was at 60% despite continuing taking the Imatinib (nearly the same as when i was first diagnosed - 70%). My bloods are holding steady. Im still chronic phase. There is no way at this stage to tell if it is the T315i gene mutation. Gene mutation samples have been taken and the results are due on the 5th of Jan. A meeting has been set up at Sheffield with transplant specialists (Which in a followup meeting on the 22nd they strongly suggested i should keep). I realise at this stage it is a precaution. I have asked all the applicable questions and done as much research as i can. So far i have covered everything from "Why the Imatinib may have stopped working" to "My own cost effectiveness and life expectancy". Thank you NICE people. (Its 9.2 years and 280,619 by the way). My heads about ready to pop with all the science ive cramped up in there this Christmas. I know there are people out there who have had similar experiences and i realise a lot of the information available is purely speculative but any advice is welcomed. Should i just sit tight and cross my fingers ?
All the best
David